The Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay

5/5

I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck. I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walk.

Former piano prodigy Nastya Kashnikov wants two things: to get through high school without anyone learning about her past and to make the boy who took everything from her—her identity, her spirit, her will to live—pay.

Josh Bennett’s story is no secret: every person he loves has been taken from his life until, at seventeen years old, there is no one left. Now all he wants is be left alone and people allow it because when your name is synonymous with death, everyone tends to give you your space.

Everyone except Nastya, the mysterious new girl at school who starts showing up and won’t go away until she’s insinuated herself into every aspect of his life. But the more he gets to know her, the more of an enigma she becomes. As their relationship intensifies and the unanswered questions begin to pile up, he starts to wonder if he will ever learn the secrets she’s been hiding—or if he even wants to.

The Sea of Tranquility is a rich, intense, and brilliantly imagined story about a lonely boy, an emotionally fragile girl, and the miracle of second chances


Ohhh,ez a könyv elképesztő. Nehéz értékelést írni,mikor nem tudod összeszedni a gondolataid. Befejezed a könyvet és hirtelen azt sem tudod mit érzel. Öröm,düh,megkönnyebbülés.Mindez egyben.
A fél csillag a könyv vége felé történtek miatt van,mert az volt az egyetlen alaklom mikor nem imádtam Josh Bennettet. Nem volt hibás,nem követett el semmi megbocsáthatatlant,és mégis akkor visítani tudtam volna.
Josh Benett az a fajta karakter akit az első pillanatól kezdve ellenállhatatlanul vonzónak tartasz,akit szeretnél megvigasztalni,de mindenek előtt megmenteni. Magányos,antiszociális, és titokzatos. 

"Everything in me turns on and shuts down at the same time. I am weak and strong. I am terrified and brave. I am lost and found. I am here and gone."

Nastya,nem mindennapi,boldog gondatlan lány. Messze messze áll a boldogságtól. 

"I was probably going to feel shitty for the rest of my life, a life I should not even still be living. A life that should have let me go. So I got angry. Then I got very angry. Then I got angrier still. But you can only go so long being angry before you learn to hate. I stopped feeling so sorry for myself and started hating instead. Whining was pathetic, but hate got things done. Hate strengthened my body and shaped my resolve and what I resolved to do was to get revenge. Hate seemed pretty damn healthy to me."

Két sérült lélek,két szomorú,fájdalmas élet. Amikor ez a két világ összetalálkozik,nem lehet előre megjósolni mi fog történni. És nem is tudod.
Ezt a történetet nem lehet csak úgy elmesélni. Nem lehet úgy elolvasni hogy közben ne érezd mindazt amit ők éreznek.
Ha arra számítasz hogy egy szerelmi történetet kapsz,amiben végül minden jóra fordul,tévedsz. Igen,végül minden megoldódik,de az odáig tartó utazás elemésztő.Kitartásról,erősségről és megbocsájtásról szól.

“Maybe one day you'll come back. Maybe you never will and that'll suck, but you can't keep doing this. The blame and the self-loathing and the bullshit. I can't watch that. It makes me hate you for hating yourself. I don't want to lose you. But I'd rather lose you if it means you'll be happy. I think if you come back with me today, you'll never be okay. And I'll never be okay if you aren't. I need to know that there's a way for people like us to end up okay. I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay, maybe even good, and it's out there and we just haven't found it yet. There's got to be a happier ending than this, here. There's got to be a better story. Because we deserve one. You deserve one. Even if it doesn't end with you coming back to me.”

“I love you, Sunshine, and I don't give a shit whether you want me to or not.”